Always Just Beneath the Surface

Around the time I started to develop into a woman an eating disorder consumed me. I don’t know that I’ll ever truly understand how or why, but my life was never the same. My idea of being a woman was very wrapped up in an idea of beauty that was the farthest thing from healthy. I wanted to be seen in a way that when I looked at myself I couldn’t see anywhere. I felt ugly. I felt insufficient. I felt unwanted.

Throughout my life journey, I’ve had ebbs and flows of how I feel about my appearance. The truth is no matter how much work you do as a person who has had an eating disorder, it never goes away. It always is laying there somewhere just beneath the surface.

As I work on my personal growth and self acceptance, I am exploring what feminine energy is and how to love what is unique to feminine energy. I’ve been looking at ways to express this special beauty. In our society, a coquette is defined as a flirtatious woman. I think it is interesting that it is positioned in a negative light. The truth is, the word itself is so delightful. It has a sweetness to it. In my original piece, A Coquette Blooms, I seek to challenge the negative connotation and bring out the beauty in a coy grin and the beauty that resides within every woman.

“Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.”

~Anonymous